Here are some words I'll never say Thoughts that crossed my mind More times than I'd ever admit You were there, but your soul wasn't with me I felt so empty, so alone with you near I missed when everything felt real and clear Eyes that sparkled, tender smiles and gentle touch Silly little games, laughing way too much I miss the silent kind of craving That sometimes burned, uncontained, unshaming I wished it always stayed that way But we got lost in the things we did and didn't say You never heard What I screamed in my silence So much was spoken And still left unspoken You never heard What I screamed in my silence So much was spoken And still left unspoken I can't put all the blame on you I know I could've tried much more Held on tighter, said it louder Even when you weren't listening anymore I spoke so much, I shouted loud But you had made up your mind somehow Unshaken, safe in what you believed While I was changing, you stayed the same with ease You never heard What I screamed in my silence So much was spoken And still left unspoken