Garbed in misery, a mirror of my world, vomit still speckles my bib Lowly imps of pity swarm like buzzards in the Sun To lull me to sleep in my crib I dream of you and then I dream of something else I lust to be lustful once more Recounting failures I have failed once again The kismit I cannot ignore Inside of this crates I have combed for days For any small sliver, moments looped, replayed I wanted to save you I haven't the strenght to save us both I long to be near you, your ship is now miles out from my coast I still get your messages No flikers of light will bring you back What was almost blinding Fades slowly to black Alone, confused with a body I abused Silenced by a monster in my pace Defeat, passanger seat Driver steals my voice and wears my face I wanted to save you I haven't the strenght to save us both I long to be near you, your ship is now miles out from my coast I still get your messages They're useless but mean the world to me Recalling my mother Smiling down at the proud little boy I used to be This river runs higher To all I've ever desired I washed up on porpose Drowning on the surface In envy of what he became, a dying green star