Waking up in suffering Same as I was yesterday Cold breath speaks kindly Tells me to go back to sleep Words that no one hears Pass through paralyzed In visions of darkness I close my eyes I lay my head down to rest But sleep never comes Love evades every thought And pills nullify my restless mind I hate myself but I couldn't hate you Even if I tried Hiding in my purest failure I attempt to understand Why hate and love seem so different But are one and the same Falling out of grace I know It'll never change Even if I tried