You see, I fear I'm turning into somebody That wouldn't ever make my momma proud I'm wearing women's clothes and got my nails paint While my girl is naked layin' on the couch My new obsession is showing up late And leaving after thirty minutes out I feel guilty when I pull into my driveway But since when do I put food inside your mouth? So when I get to Heaven, can I finally breathe Or will there always be somebody tryna pull me from beneath? (Yeah) I'm trying hard to give myself to people, but they leave Every time I start to fade, 'cause I'm too scared of company Scared of company, scared, scared of company Taking me for granted, so I'm scared of company (scared) Scared of company, scared, scared of company Everybody leaves, so now I'm scared of company (scared) See, every night I talk to God on my lonesome As if I haven't done Him wrong a hundred times Forgive me, I've been chasing a Nirvana I don't think anybody knows what's wrong or right My biggest flaw is givin' tons of chances Walk all over me and then I'll make you lunch Why does everybody think I owe them somethin'? I'm sleeping with my self-worth in my clutch So when I get to Heaven, can I finally breathe Or will there always be somebody tryna pull me from beneath? (Yeah) I'm trying hard to give myself to people, but they leave Every time I start to fade, 'cause I'm too scared of company Scared of company, scared, scared of company Taking me for granted, so I'm scared of company (scared) Scared of company, scared, scared of company Everybody leaves, so now I'm scared of company (scared) Why do I always look after you? I'm so consumed No matter what happens, I'll fall for you I'm so consumed Weight is on my back I wish you was fair Weight is on my back, my back Do I need somebody? Need somebody? Need somebody? Need somebody?