Mama, I used to watch you scam and sell dope But as of now, I don't know what to tell folks when they ask me 'bout you Knowing it's been a couple months since we done spoke So I try to break the tension with a joke, huh Truth is, Mama, you need meds for schizo, but you won't take it If you lose all your marbles, you ain't gon' have none to play with A black woman who crying for help, and I'm trying to save her The last thing you want to be called in this world is crazy Aw, poor baby, I just praying that your Shasta ain't flat 'Cause you say a lot of shit that you could never take back Is that the reason why my daddy left? Just tell me the truth My sister Brie act just like you A whole litter, you pushed seven of us out by the age of twenty-five I don't see you when I look you in the eyes I'm looking for Aisha, I'm looking for the woman that's inside Just let me know when she arrives Mouth full of pills in front of us, could've died The world on your shoulder, how heavy is suicide? If God took you then, I wouldn't wanna be alive Shit, if God took you then, I would be at war with God, yeah I wish I could save your smile I wish I could ease your mind like you have done for me Mama, just stay a while Don't even like the tears that fall from my eyes I'm not crazy at all I'm not crazy at all I'm not crazy at all I'm not crazy at all Sometimes I wonder if the reason I don't treat bitches right Is 'cause I never seen you get treated right If you pass me the cycle, then I'm fucked up for life 'Cause every nigga that you get with you fight Uh, just let me know what happens when all of the hugs run out Mama, what do I do when all the drugs run out? Mama, your mind like a drink left in the sun The bubbles are gone, the damage is done But I keep pouring my love into your glass Praying one day this storm gon' pass I need you bad, I, I need you bad To the woman that smoked weed with my brothers right before class To the woman that I love way more than my fucking dad Can I borrow one of your laughs and can I steal one of your smile? And can I hold on to your joy? 'Cause I ain't felt that since a child And if it wasn't for your womb, I wouldn't be breathing right now I swear to God, I just need you right now I wish I could save your smile I wish I could ease your mind like you have done for me Mama, just stay a while Don't even like the tears that fall from my eyes I'm not crazy at all I'm not crazy at all I'm not crazy at all I'm not crazy at all Mama, if you hear me, then I'm still your son Even when the darkness comes, I won't run I pray one day that you find your way back And that your Shasta never goes flat I'm sorry for not noticing sooner, you know I'm one of your troopers Forgave you for everything, you only a fucking human Remember we lived on Hoover? On church grounds, hallelujah When you beat the shit out me for talking to you like I'm stupid Used to work two jobs, but you don't work no more I know you hurt but I don't want to see you hurt no more I feel like dying or just killing myself Watching you lose your mind and can't do shit to help Nigga, you done drank all my motherfuckin' Shastas? Look at you over here, letting you sleep on the couch, and you in this bitch drinking all of my shit? Nigga, if you don't go take yo' ass down to the motherfuckin' Dairy