Its cold here in the city Always seems that way Ive been thinking about you almost everyday Thinking about the good times Thinking about the bad Thinking about how bad it feels all alone again Im sorry for the ways things are in China Im sorry things arent what they used to be But more than anything else Im sorry for myself That youre not here with me My friends all ask about you I say youre doing fine I expect to hear from you almost any time They all know Im lying I cant sleep at night They all know Im dying deep down inside Im sorry for all the lies I told you Im sorry for the things I didnt say But more than anything else Im sorry for myself I cant believe you went away Im sorry if I took some things for granted Im sorry for the chains I put on you But more than anything else Im sorry for myself for living without you