Sittin' in traffic, another day of feelin' nothin' Trying to find somethin', I guess it's back to huffin' Paint and model glue, oh how I die when I look At you smilin', lovin' life and all I know is blue Rainy days and cold stares, broken love affairs Everything's beautiful as long as I ain't there I guess I wasn't meant to crack a smile, who cares I think I'll go to sleep for a while I'm barely livin' in my skin, depression's my only friend And I don't know where I am headin', tryin' to forget where I'vebeen And I'm so sick of lyin', God please show me that silver linin' 'Cause I've heard tale, and I'm not well, my head's full of helland this world's a jail, but And it don't matter and I don't care I let my pain into the air 'Cause everything good's over there And everything here's hard to bear And as the pain begins to displace, had it to ear level with thisplace You see it on my face a state of suspended grace Gradually I erase and find comfort in the sickest womb I might be present but not in the room To who it may consume, melting ensembles bleeding chellos Running through bordello's drama, like othello hidin' out fromponcharello Dead off in the median, fallin' apart like usual, handin' outflyers to my funeral So they say life's a play and that all the world's a stage And for another part I pray, the show ends the same wayeveryday And my heart carries the pain, of a brain I can't explain Am I insane, am I insane And everything good is gone And everything good is gone And everything good is gone And everything bad is here And everything bad is here And everything bad is here It doesn't really matter now does it Yeah, everything's so hard to bear Everything here's hard to bear And everything here's hard to bear And everything here's hard to bear