They look at me like I should try But I'm barely making it through the night I see the worry in their eyes And I just freeze, I can't reply They don't say it, but I know They're waiting for me to carry the load But how can I save anyone When I'm already coming undone? I don't eat, I barely sleep But I hide it all, I bury it deep They need someone strong to lead But all I am is broken, weak I can't be what they need me to be I'm falling apart silently They're hurting, and I feel the blame But I'm drowning in my own shame I see their pain, it's killing me But I've got no strength, no remedy They want me to fix what's wrong But I've been empty for too long They don't pretend, they don't fake a smile They're tired too, been for a while And I know they're counting on me To be more than this, to not just breathe But I'm lost inside my head And I can't say the things I've left unsaid Because if I told them I'm not okay They might break, and walk away I hate myself for being like this For every moment that I miss They need help, they need hope But I can't even cope I can't be what they need me to be And it's tearing the life out of me They cry, and I just sit and stare Like I'm not even really there I want to help, I swear I do But I can't even make it through I feel like I'm already dead But still get blamed for things unsaid I stay quiet, hold it in Too ashamed of where I've been I can't say I'm not okay 'Cause I know they'll walk away So I smile when I'm breaking Breathe while I'm shaking They want more, I've got less And the weight is in my chest It hurts, God, it hurts so bad To be the reason they're this sad I can't be what they need me to be And I'm so sorry, I just want to be free Free from the guilt, free from the shame Free from always taking the blame I wish they knew I tried so hard But this world already left me scarred If love was enough, I'd give it all But I've got nothing left to fall