I know you must know it now My organs have stoned My fingers are numb around Your warm, pulsing throat And I whispered: My wife She opened her pale eyes She smiled, so I smiled And I got what I deserved This house was my flowered heart But my petals have fallen Do you love him, tell me now Or I'll show you my scars And you will bow boldly And tell me you're sorry But you're hardly moving Wake up and give me what I know I deserve Farmer's wife heard it from the street down below And later fully recalled each harrowing note And she would cried Holy Spirit has cursed me And for this my ending sooner than I deserve The children weren't lucky to only used ears As I stood on top of him looking down I felt the fear in their skin as they plead Father, did you kill our leader? Our rock and great teacher? What did he deserve? And I replied No, killed my leeches And the wound that is? Is I hope you can see it For what I deserve The judge would ask: Why again, was it him and not her? The only response I could think was: To settle my nerves Try killing my leeches for sucking me speechless And abandoning secrets and trust all the same So I deserve what I deserve So I deserve what I deserve Oooh Oooh Oooh Oooh