I'll have to get used to this Spend my hours and my days Drinking to everything that we never did I was supposed to grow old with you To die in your arms You were the best I ever had You we’re the best of us Now I'm far away And I hate myself And I wish that I could be By your side 'Cause it hurts a lot to see you Happy with her Seeing how you kiss her Is driving me insane And I won't say It makes me happy 'Cause I'm not, and I want you to be happy, but with me I want you to be happy, but with me Now I'm just a memory Lost in the sound Of her high pitched voice And it hurts a lot to see you Happy with her Seeing how you kiss her Is driving me insane And I won't say It makes me happy 'Cause I'm not and I want you to be happy but with me I want you to be happy but with me And I can not lie I tried so hard to keep you near me By my side But things run so fast I can not wait I can not lie