My intuition's hard to listen to so I go missing My friends are high and we've already had this conversation I'm getting tired but it's the product of a generation Self-medicated on the thought of someone's validation I read a different definition of what love is I wish somebody would've told me what it wasn't 'Cause I tried to fix it, fought and quit it Either way I spin it, I wasn't in it I'm going through it, tryna find the meaning I talk about it all the time but I'm not healing I couldn't help it, help what I'm feeling You find the chaos if that's what you believe in You're sick of hearing it's all over when it isn't You're in your thoughts and it's a toxic competition But it's not catastrophic, it's comparison religion The attention that you give is your decision I'm going through it, tryna find the meaning I talk about it all the time but I'm not healing I couldn't help it, help what I'm feeling You find the chaos if that's what you believe in (You find the chaos if that's what you believe in)