Had my first panic attack after I turned thirteen And the pain in my chest lasted till twenty-three Ten years of my life Throwing fists at my mind I held the stress in my blood and the fear in my veins Told myself it was chemical, I'd never change Ten years of my life Same old tears in my eyes 'Cause I always thought I would be anxious My heart in a knot, halfway to breaking And all of my best years were already gone I always thought I'd be sad, glad I was wrong I still remember that night, I was only fifteen Saw the whole world come crashing down right at my feet Stood over a grave And I lost all my faith 'Cause I always thought I would be anxious My heart in a knot, halfway to breaking And all of my best years were already gone I always thought I'd be sad, glad I was wrong I'm so glad, I'm so glad, I'm so glad I was wrong I was sad, I was sad, I was sad for so long I'm glad I was wrong I'm so glad, I'm so glad, I'm so glad I was wrong I was sad, I was sad, I was sad for so long I'm glad I was wrong I'm twenty-four and I'm learning when life wears me thin I still have the same heart but I've got thicker skin Ten years of my life Now I'm finally alive