Fake

I wish I wasn't fucked up
Wish I had some real friends
Yeah, then I wouldn't have to pretend
That I'm happy alone, that I'm happy at all

'Cause I'd have someone to answer my calls
When I'm feeling depressed, when I'm feeling distressed
From the stress, I've been stacking on my shoulders
Then they could come over

Then tell me it's not over, that I'm acting crazy
And to settle my soul
They'd remind me that I'm not alone
I'm not alone

But here I am, sitting in a still room
Telling myself to breathe, it'll be okay
Thinking 'bout their secrets that I have to keep
And telling all their voices to go away
They're not real, they're fake
Like all the lies they spray
With their toxic venom slipping off their tongues
They're not real, they're fake

I wish I wasn't a mess, so I wouldn't confess
That loving was my biggest regret
All the souls that I've loved, all the holes that they dug
To bury me when they'd had enough

All the times that I tried just to keep it inside
Shove it down till I couldn't get lower
Wish I'd have known when I got older

That they just get colder, never trust a soul
And only count on your own
'Cause you're the only one that you truly know
Oh, how can you know?

'Cause here I am, sitting in a still room
Telling myself to breathe, it'll be okay
Thinking 'bout their secrets that I have to keep
And telling all their voices to go away
They're not real, they're fake
Like all the lies they spray
With their toxic venom slipping off their tongues
They're not real, they're fake

They're so fake
La la
La la
La la la

(And here I am, sitting in a still room)
(Having trouble breathing while they all float away)
(Let them all float away)

But here I am, sitting in a still room
Telling myself to breathe, it'll be okay
Thinking 'bout their secrets that I have to keep
And telling all their voices to go away
They're not real, they're fake
Like all the lies they spray
With their toxic venom slipping off their tongues
They're not real, they're fake