I only ever date older than me because in primary school They said I was mature so when I overestimate how committed I’ll be It’s because I don’t know what it means to be sure But loving is giving so I give more and more And I whore my whole self out for a crush It always felt forbidden but that’s what draws and draws And I pour my whole self out for a touch They said that I was pretty but pretty doesn’t mean hot Bleach my hair, dye my skin, colonise the bones I'm in Everybody only ever wants cracked china Nowadays a salvos only place to find em because porcelain untouched Too beautiful to be loved, not safe for work When heavy hands are holding onto delicacy tongues So I rinse and repeat till I forget how to eat Still obsessing over not getting older and guessing How a cold shoulder could mean anything that it’s not I'm waiting waiting for them to say that they like me They’re fading fading like they’re already behind me Love isn’t fulfilling when it falls and falls So I haul my whole self out of a crush Because I was never willing to be bored I'm bored so my infatuation's all out of touch They said that I was pretty but pretty doesn’t mean hot My split ends are getting frizzy, but my roots are never gonna stop Bleach my hair, dye my skin, colonise the bones I'm in Everybody only ever wants cracked china Nowadays a salvos only place to find em because porcelain untouched Too beautiful to be loved, not safe for work When heavy hands are holding onto delicacy tongues Learned what I needed to be, watching white girls on TV Overhearing conversations underneath a supermarket aisle Labels intercept encouragement with poison hidden in their bile That’s a life that’s not mine, she is not my design If it’s yours, that’s fine, but I am defined by my own alignments, a stereotype’s comparative No power of the imperative, your aspirational narrative Everybody only ever wants cracked china Nowadays a salvos only place to find em because porcelain untouched Too beautiful to be loved, not safe for work When heavy hands are holding onto delicacy tongues