Tonight I'll stay awake long enough to stop breathing and I wonder how long it will take before I pass out drunk off night skies and lying on hills with wet grass below and blue black above- I will carry all the weights tonight 'cause I keep remembering the day that you said you might go crazy if you spent one more minute with me and I just don't know- is one more minute going to kill you now? Stop before I say too much- so now I've been alone and it's been going but tomorrow might not come if I don't let it so don't forget the mornings that we spent deep inside out heads staring at blank walls 'cause that's what counts and I don't know but I'm trying to let you go but I can't cut so well these strings I have around my neck and I'm trying to let you know that I'm doing this by myself- so don't forget we sent letters to ourselves without words