Soul twitching roots twisting My every thought is sickening I'm restless, confessions The thought just leaves me breathless I can't imagine a day Without broken promises I'm so ashamed of the way I adore my bonda-a-a-ages (Yeah!) all it took was a taste This garden was beautiful But now it's filled with shadows of gray There's blood in the rain The soil is stained I'm wilting Carve away the secrets in me It's like I'm sedated Unholy medication Lost count of my faces Only the fire of God could save me So melt away the masquerade Expose what's under my skin And separate the flesh and me I need to reawaken (Yeah!) all it took was a taste This garden was beautiful But now it's filled with shadows of gray There's blood in the rain The soil is stained I'm wilting Carve away the secrets in me (yo, okay) One, two, three, breathe Inhale, exhale, huh I'm sick, not well Tryna prevail, I fail, huh Expel this spell, huh One, two, three, breathe Secrets I'm holding feel like a weight on my shoulder Intoxicated I'm feeling, but yet I'm sober They say he paid the price for me, I upped the total Changed my direction, I'm tryna shift like a motor I know this ain't who I'm meant to be, but if it's meant to be Then come and carve these secrets out of me Or what's inside of me Draw it out of me like phlebotomy It's me versus me like a rivalry (yuh) I tell you how I get here in privacy Like, yuh I need to find myself again Trapped inside these shadows of gray (Yeah!) all it took was a taste This garden was beautiful But now it's filled with shadows of gray There's blood in the rain The soil is stained I'm wilting Carve away the secrets in me