I hold it back but I really think I should be crying I can't get out of bed, feels like I'm dying Heavy chest from the way that I keep on smiling Looking for another soul that's empathizing With me when I can't breathe I got a switchblade on my side tonight In case that I can no longer fight those Thoughts in my head I took a long walk through the cemetery Empty out my head, try to find sanctuary Hate it when my life feels ordinary Listening to music in solitary I don't wanna die but I wanna be buried I killed who I was, I'm a mercenary So I try, I try, I try to fight But why, oh why, oh why should I? I ask my God, do you really think that we are living? I can't go on in a world where I'm not forgiven Steel bars, everyone makes their own prison I think mine's the memories that I'm reminiscing Looking for another soul that's sympathizing Help me because I can't breathe I got a switchblade on my side tonight In case that I can no longer fight those Thoughts in my head I took a long walk through the cemetery Empty out my head, try to find sanctuary Hate it when my life feels ordinary Listening to music in solitary I don't wanna die but I want to be buried I killed who I was, I'm a mercenary So I try, I try, I try to fight But why, oh why, oh why should I? You say you're feeling so alive I know you lie 'cause so do I You say you're feeling so alive I know you lie 'cause so do I You say you're feeling so alive I know you lie 'cause so do I