I saw you yesterday I didn't even say: Hi I know you don't deserve that But I couldn't find the words I let 'em out in my best friend's car Just calling you things that I know you aren't A gaslighter, a fake-ass crier, and stupid An imposter, but I'm a liar, 'cause the truth is I don't wanna let you go Holding on to threads of hope I'd rather hate you if I don't get to have you anymore Sorry that I've been so cold Maybe it was all my fault I had to make you the enemy so I can keep you close Oh, I'm covered in tears in this parking lot Holding this grudge 'cause it's all I've got Four years and twenty bad fights Black-outs and little white lies It's easier to look back and leave out all the good nights Say goodbye in your parents' yard Was calling you things that I know you aren't You're a player, manipulator, but the truth is I don't wanna let you go (go) Holding on to threads of hope (hope) I'd rather hate you if I don't get to have you anymore (you anymore) Sorry that I've been so cold Maybe it was all my fault I had to make you the enemy so I can keep you close Oh, I'm covered in tears in this parking lot Holding this grudge 'cause it's all I've got I had your Friday midnights Kissing in blurry headlights Had your heavenly shoulder to cry on In the back of the taxi, saying: Take me home Now I'm left on my own, and you took it all Your perfect body and all of your clothes And the doll while you left me with nothing but blood on my hands And nothing to hold But I don't wanna let you go Holding on to threads of hope I'd rather hate you if I don't get to have you anymore (you anymore) I'm sorry that I've been so cold Maybe it was all my fault I had to make you the enemy so I can keep you clo-o-o Oh, I'm covered in tears in this parking lot Holding this grudge 'cause it's all I've got