It's wintertime In my mind Out my head Overtime Out of line Underslept Under read Over grind Under fed Tore me to pieces And tossed me like wonderbread Nothing's been looking up Feelings (breathe) keep cooking up Monster in my closet Me and him hooking up 'Cause it's fight or it's flight So I'm on a plane every night And I beat up myself Till I eat up myself Up, down, left, right Yeah, I cheat on myself Focused on times when I needed your help But you left me a mess I can't clean up myself I'm trapped in spiderwebs Made from things you said And promised I just can't pretend All this pain will end No stopping These self-destructive Thoughts stay with me all the time You got me locked in I'm trapped in I'm trapped in Your design Ooooooooo Broken down zombie Mechanics work on me I can't figure it out You don't want me? Trust me, I'm lying I gave up, I'm trying Got eyes in the back of my head So stay silent 'Cause I see red With thoughts of you mixed in it Hateful My veins cold like Michigan Used to fixate on pictures of us Now I see them and throw up my guts Throw up my guts This can't be love Bury it deep down with nothing above A bottomless pit where I'm never enough Dream something's chasing me But I can't run I'm trapped in spiderwebs Made from things you said And promised I just can't pretend All this pain will end No stopping These self-destructive Thoughts stay with me all the time You got me locked in I'm trapped in I'm trapped in Your design Ooooh I've been wrapped inside your spiderweb I'm too far gone Wrapped inside your spiderweb, I'm Too far- Too far-