Morning arrives and I stare at your chair Coffee goes cold like nobody cares Your jacket still hangs where you left it that day I walk through the house but you're so far away I talk to your picture like you hear every word My voice feels heavy, my chest always hurts The clock on the wall feels cruel as it ticks Each second without you just quietly twists I reach for my phone just to call you again Forgetting the truth I relive now and then You not being here is killing me slow I wish I was there with you Can't take this anymore This ache in my heart just continues to grow You not being here is killing me slow I sit by the window, your loved in the spring Remembering laughter and the simplest things Your voice in my memory plays like a thread Sewing the pieces of words you once said The bed feels too large, the nights feel too long I hold on to pillows pretending you're strong I search for your warmth in the sheets where you lay But all that I find is the cold of the day I close both my eyes just to see you once more But waking reminds me what life has in store You not being here is killing me slow I wish I was there with you Can't take this anymore This ache in my heart just continues to grow You not being here is killing me slow If heaven has windows I hope you can see How much of my soul you carried with me I'd trade every breath just for one more hello One last embrace before letting you go You not being here is killing me slow I wish I was there with you Can't take this anymore I carry your love everywhere that I go You not being here is killing me slow I whisper goodnight like you're still in the room And sit with the quiet that fills up the gloom