Mm, mm, mm Never get close when I want it Every little spark has left me burned Kinda wanna die when you get quiet Maybe it's you I don't deserve So at one point, I stopped callin' In a few weeks, we'll stop talkin' 'Cause I'd rather break my own heart Than to let you be what caused it Honestly, there's a part of me that's scared I'll never find it So at one point, I stopped tryin' Maybe I'm just a masochist (mm) Maybe I'm scared that when we kiss I won't live up to who you think I am And I'll be let down again So at one point, I stopped callin' In a few weeks, we'll stop talkin' 'Cause I'd rather break my own heart Than to let you be what caused it Honestly, there's a part of me that's scared I'll never find it So at one point, I stopped tryin' In my own body I'm out to get me No, you can't be what he wants New York City Was special (special) to me But I don't get what I want So at one point, I stopped callin' In a few weeks, we'll stop talkin' 'Cause I'd rather break my own heart Than to let you be what caused it Honestly, there's a part of me that's scared I'll never find it So at one point, I stopped tryin' Mm-mm, I stopped tryin'