The doctor mumbles, he seems bored Guess my worst fear is just a chore Deep breath in, he probes inside Who's the brave face for? Who's by my side? Unless I'm not alone And that's just why I came If someone made a home of me Then I believe I owe them a name So, hey, God, if you're up there, guess this proves that you're a man Don't think that you would send this if you really understand On the outside made me soft, a place for all to rest their heads But inside you made me empty, hard, my belly full of lead 'Cause somehow motherhood's the only thing I've known for sure So what is left if mother's not for sure anymore? Please, Doctor, cut me open, scoop out all that's in the way Oh, Doctor, will you hollow me? Make room for them to stay He seems scared to voice the news As if I haven't guessed for years God just built you backwards, girl But otherwise, you're in the clear Aren't you relieved? He says Now you're free another day So flippant, as if mother weren't the first word I ever learned to say So, hey, God, if you're up there, guess this proves that you're a man Don't think that you'd have made me this if you really understand On the outside, I am soft, a place for all to rest their heads But inside you made me empty, hard, my belly full of lead 'Cause somehow motherhood's the only thing I've known for sure So what is left if mother's not for sure anymore? Please, Mother, cut me open, scoop out all that's in the way Oh, Mother, will you hollow me? Make room for them to stay 'Cause how can I just let it go? I'm only 23 That's too damn young to have to come to terms with what this means I'll finally grow up, now that I'm choking on the dust And to survive, I'll shrug it off, I'll smile, I'll adjust I'll tuck the dream of you away forever or for now You were just make believe, a fairytale anyhow This sense of unborn purpose, it belongs upon the shelf But now that you're gone, I find that I am just a child myself So, hey, God, if you're up there, please take away this lot I know I haven't earned it, but they still deserve a shot On the outside, I will carry on, keep breathing, raise my head But inside, I'm slowly dying from my belly full of lead 'Cause mother was the only thing I've ever known for sure So what is left of me if I can't be a mother anymore? Please, someone cut me open, scoop out all that's in the way Oh, Mother, you have hollowed me, make room for me to stay Oh, Mother, God, can you hear me? Oh, Mother, can you hear me, God? Mother, can you hear me? Mother, can you hear me, God