I had to climb out of hell, man From the bottom Had to do a couple things Some I'm not proud of You never heard my prayers, God Not even when I'd shout 'em You don't answer soon I'ma give ya somethin' louder Scrapin' for change Stomach aches, fuck them hunger pains Back when I had to steal them groceries Out that Wegmans down on James That day the state came, everything changed She don't remember my face She don't remember my name Got nowhere to stay Came home from school one day Cops came, took mom away Said I gotta sign some paper Said they gotta operate I was just a kid, but I had to sign my name Up late, phone rang, she's dead Took my breath away I'm Runnin through the park And those days were the darkest You locked me out the front door Rain was pourin' the hardest I was sleepin' in a car And crackhouse apartments With the windows busted out Dirt floor and no carpets When I'd hit up '57 just to score some narcotics The pills I popped for the pain But they never could stop it I fell apart, house of cards They say home is where the heart is I ain't never really had a home That's maybe why I'm heartless Back when they drew my blood Said I gotta wait two months Can't sleep I'm up, fucked up on drugs So I guess it's bottoms up Half of my life just waiting to die Pop another 7.5 Huntington's chorea Killed everyone I loved Abandoned house, abandoned son Cops came and picked me up Woke up in that hospital and I didn't know where the fuck I was Raided my apartment at like twenty one Had that gun And I still keep it on me Wussup? Runnin through the park And those days were the darkest You locked me out the front door Rain was pourin the hardest I was sleepin' in a car And crackhouse apartments With the windows busted out Dirt floor and no carpets When I'd hit up '57 just to score some narcotics The pills I popped for the pain But they never could stop it I fell apart, house of cards They say home is where the heart is I ain't never really had a home That's maybe why I'm heartless