The older I get The less I want to be around I'd do it myself But I don't want to be found like that I thought you were forever Why did you have to die? I'll see you on the other side All things considered, I should be fine This is the worst I've felt in my entire life I am sick of the sight of my own blood At war with myself again The only reason I'm not dead Because I don't know what comes next Heaven only feels so far Because of the weight on my fucking chest The cut bleeds The wounds heal The day I lost my mind This feels worse than dying Worse than death The scar Is eternal I watched you die I watched you die Fuck I watched you die