When I think about the truth sometimes While sitting up alone late Listening for my heart at night, just to hear it beat And it's got a hole There's something wrong, there's something more 'Cause I gave up on believing it I was just a little, lone bottle babe Howling in an empty room, just sitting inside for days We got to perform it, we got to put our best faces on So people come and go and then disappear for days So you spend your whole life watching love like staring through a haze For glory is not my friend I never win when I try to win I just lose it all again And the story I tell myself: It's not your fault, it's not yourself You were just never born not to win But I'm sick of lonely mornings, I'm sick of thinking about it I keep thinking it might change someday But goddamn I truly doubt it But it hurts too much to think, and it hurts too much to know it And it hurts too much to hold too tight, then it hurts when you let go of it It just fucking hurts all the time, that's why we never notice it So forget about this paper, forget about the baby Forget about the times I said if I lost you I'd go crazy Forget these gilded ceilings, forget my wedding vows Forget you were the one thing I could never live without 'Cause glory is not my friend I never win when I try to win I just lose it all again And the story that I tell myself, you're better off by all alone Then I hate being alone But you cried when I walked away and you said I looked sedated And just because I hold it in so much doesn't mean I don't fucking hate it And I just want you to come home Oh babe, please come home You say you never left me, but those words you say about me You never had to hide from all those endless ghouls around me Because I love you more than that I love you more than that I've never loved anything so much Can't you feel it when we touch? But I never dared to lose someone and I can't be cool about it I lay awake and think of you and it hurts so much to doubt it 'Cause glory is not my friend I always lose when I try to win Now I've lost it all again And our story, does it really have to end? Maybe we could start again I truly hope we do, my friend I truly hope we do, my friend I just can't lose you again