Do not fear, I come to repent Stupidity, I didn't realize what we meant A soul full of hate in my cross to bear Your warmth and love I did not care I do not want you to see me cry I am at fault so I must die Your home so final, your stone so cold Your soft voice flows in the wind To sleep per chance to dream Bolt the door, bare the wrist To kill, I know the risk To slit, per chance to bleed Oh holy night You were so kind and beautiful back then To please my every wish and whim I remember you on that fatal day In a pool of blood there you lay Your peaceful eyes so calm, so calm In remembrance I'll use the razor in my palm In the darkness of lost dreams my dead hopes left to petrify In a maze of my rotting aspirations Back to the comforting darkness of death Refrain I felt real love for the first time in my life My mind confused so you paid the price I hope you forgive me for I can never Liquid of life flows in the artery I must sever The blood running down my arm makes me smile For my own life is the ultimate denial I'm sorry for loving you, so sorry To die per chance to be free To love per chance to be loved Oh holy night I will never see again.