Dead is better better than this I long to feel maggots gnaw at my eyes I long to be free of all of my lies. I want you to scrape my brains off the wall I want you to pull the knife from my chest I want you to be there when I'm dying I want the last thing I see to be you crying I'm returning to nothing. Smell the tears quivering from My lips of pain as I live the hurt Pain fires up my spine with unrelentless force As the uncaring emotions tear into me Dismissing lies as truth I lay with unconscious eyes Blackened in fear, you took what I had, Inside. I want you to pull the pills from my throat I want you to push me from the ledge I want you to untie the noose from my neck I want you to pull the razor from my wrist I want you to be there to feel my last breath I want you to know I'll find paradise in death. I'm returning to nothing...nothing. Refrain