alone at night i think about what i'd do if the person i was meant to be - ever shines through how i spend my days trying to be the kind of kid that you want close to you and i kno how this one ends we want the ones that we can't have so what the fuck is wrong with me? why can't i let go of you? the first time all i saw were your eyes and now i can't stand to look inside them it's not your distance that's killing me it's being close to you that makes me close to myself and i can't stand the way i am i push away the ones who love me and i embrace the apathy and hang from all your lies and if i could i'd take back my words and heal my heart if i could i'd take back the secrets my stiched up heart if i could i'd forget your face a brand new start if i could i'd show you how you tore me apart