It's what I search for in my self It's the understanding that In my head it's all made up I lie in bed and think about Every last word and everything I could have done to save us now I think of your embrace how everything was fine those times but when your world comes crashing down That's when I wont be around To catch your fall And everything was your call So it's not my fault you've been let down (so many times before) Why do I realize when your part of me died That it's all a big mistake I wish I could've change myself Be the man you want me to be But it's all to late Did you ever think about me It's been a year since we last talked And guess who's not over it at all I guess I'll just have to tell myself that it's for the best Even if I don't believe it