Once again the black flame appears Consuming my soul and burning my breath I kneel before the heavy throb of my heart A spark of dead memories that open my scars Once more I experiment your kiss And I have to leave the edge of the abyss Things quickly became a mess Even in my worst I try to give my best I hide behind the smoke But you always find me And I become so numb Until it's hard to see I'm with my back to the wall With no reaction at all I fight an inner battle I have to overcome the pain Maybe I'm going insane It's more than I can handle In an instant it resurfaces and empties all my breath I often forget what I want to remember And always remember what I want to forget Why so much pressure, depression, delusion? Is everything drowned in confusion? But I will be redeemed And make that flame fuel to reach my dream I hide behind the smoke But you always find me And I become so numb Until it's hard to see I'm with my back to the wall With no reaction at all I fight an inner battle I have to overcome the pain Maybe I'm going insane It's more than I can handle I pray you bring back the beauty The soft breath that touches my face and fills me with life The serenity to serve my purpose The courage to embrace my fears And the awareness of every second I give to the world I'm with my back to the wall With no reaction at all I fight an inner battle I have to overcome the pain Maybe I'm going insane It's more than I can handle