I just wanna be real Sadness holds me hostage when you're near Like a depression machine A picture of good health till I go deep It's only when I get down People keep pretending I'm a frown Coping with a disease But the bright lights couldn't protect me From the ten-mile stare And when I'm not there Blue mist in my head Anxiety was made for me, I guess I keep it on the inside Smiling through my broken teeth again But when I cross the line I lose myself, unleash pure bitter hell It's only when I get down People keep pretending I'm a frown Coping with a disease But the bright lights couldn't protect me From the ten-mile stare When I'm not there Blue mist in my head Anxiety was made for me, I guess No memory for forgetting No commitment in your presence No solution to the struggle No forgiveness for your penance From my ten months there When I'm not there Blue mist in my head Anxiety was made for me Truth is I am scared From the ten-mile stare When I'm not there Blue mist in my head Anxiety was made for me, I guess From the ten-mile stare When I'm not there Blue mist in my head Anxiety was made for me, I guess