I'm not gonna do it I just wanna talk There's a difference between me and reality But I don't know anymore So let me spill and I'll try to stay still I think I know what you want from me And I guess life's full of bartering And I bring myself to a knife fight Only to find you waiting with a sword And I'll let you spill my guts I just hope this is love I won't tell you anymore I forgot my pills this week Besides, it reminds me why I need them in the first place I won't look for it anymore And I'll hold myself accountable for my actions Like you won't do yours I do not need it You were only a test in the first place Try me, try me, try me And I'll let you spill my guts I just hope you're in love