Was it laughing or crying? I heard the through wall In that shitty hotel in Saganaw I've been busy, not sleeping, drunk again And unprepared to wash up on your borderland I am on my knees Saint Judas Will you remember Me? I've been lost cause since 17 Did it mean nobody's home But here we are Was it laughing or crying that came from your mouth As you slam that heavy door as you cast me out? Long is in the desert That curse of doubt has mango that awful holy sound I am on my knees Saint Judas Will you remember me? I've been lost cause since 17 Did it mean nobody's home But here we are I am on my knees Saint Judas Will you remember Me? I've been lost cause since 17 Did it mean nobody's home But here we are Is it laughing or crying? You when you die Like some festive occasion gone arise In that cigarette carpet I felt in my guts The pain of some ancient elemental love I am on my knees Saint Judas Will you remember Me? I've been lost cause since 17 Did it mean nobody's home But here we are