Love is not the origin of my depression Gender dysphoria is not the origin of my depression Poverty is not the origin of my depression I try to grasp it, and every answer fails You are not the origin of my depression People ignoring me is not the origin of my depression Awkward social interactions are not the origin of my depression You are not the origin Failing everything is not the origin of my depression Disappearing is not the origin of my depression Not eating is not the origin of my depression But passing out helps, it makes me forget about it Your white dress, I just don't know what it is It's nowhere in my room, it's not stolen by a lover Its not ever, it's not a secret I try to think of every possible reason why you wouldn't love me But I don't know, I don't know why I don't love There is no reason why, it's aleatory You are the origin of my depression All the doors are slamming shut Every sneering face is a parody of you (every sneering face is a parody of you) I used to be so confident Your war crimes, so adorable I miss your white dress Every inch of this planet is an inch not of you