I can't laugh I can't cry I can't see inside of me Don't know the reason why I ain't straight And I ain't high I'm the ugly in between Can't live and I can't die I wanna scream And I can't win My life's a living soundtrack For a human horrorfilm I can't feel And I can't love My mama never showed me how I never was enough I can't laugh And I can't smile I'll sacrifice my aged elders To show me how to die I can't love And I can't feel And my mother never loved me Deep down she hated me I can't fuck I can't feel I am one bizarre motherfucker What the fuck's inside of me I'll kill the beast So to free my soul And smash the mirrors That won't let me go Oh, if there's a smile that ya see It's only the clockwork orange that's in me I curse the darkness impassioned plea And tear the heart out and watch me bleed I sacrifice my blood for free To satisfy the vengeance that's in me And bury the mirror that's inside me