When everything feels empty I rely on empty touch To ignore the days That I hate myself and I miss you too much And everyone feels cold When they lack something familiar There was light trapped where the Sun was This is harder than I thought I will always look for you in the quiet empty nothing Where you were convinced There was only dark and the sharpest objects I saw your coat I saw it like a martyr sees its body I saw your coat like the shadow Of a ghost that wouldn't leave here I saw your coat hanging in surrender like a white flag I saw your coat and I hate this This is harder than I thought