(I can't keep going through withdrawals) (You understand it isn't all my fault) (I promised you that I would change) Ion't feel how you felt when you looked at me As a child, to see things we shouldn't see For the fact of the matter, nobody needs Actually, after the passing, I couldn't grieve Every time that you'd smile, I couldn't sleep I knew what you were hidin' up underneath And if it's a ride or die with us, somehow we split up in the distance And I'm wonderin' what it means I was only a baby and heard the violence Twenty-five years later, disturbed by silence When I learned about prison, and learned about pistols A decade before I had a driver's license Thank God to my mom when she heard the sirens Thank God that we're all still alive, and I could tell you that I miss you But I'm at the point you're at peace in the way that I am I can't keep going through withdrawals You understand it isn't all my fault I promised you that I would change I heard you tell me the same You let the feeling fade away I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day You promised me that you would change But you don't, and it won't till were both in the grave And you felt the same, and you felt the same Yeah, I wish that I didn't think like this Every time that I close my eyelids All I see is that note you wrote When you said goodbye, and I just hear violence Like, why in the fuck was I not enough? You traded it all for another drug I needed my mom, you needed relief And I had to call the police Lookin' at the kid who didn't really know Any other way to deal with the feelings ahead Always so mad at myself and the way I keep making my present a part of the past I hated you for the way that you threw us away And when you said you would change But then I got hooked on them same pills and now I'm sayin' I can't keep going through withdrawals You understand it isn't all my fault I promised you that I would change I heard you tell me the same You let the feeling fade away I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day You promised me that you would change But you don't, and it won't till were both in the grave And you felt the same, and you felt the same If time heals all, why do I still bleed? You watched me fall, but I can't keep Going through withdrawals You understand it isn't all my fault I promised you that I would change I heard you tell me the same (tell me the same) You let the feeling fade away I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day You promised me that you would change But you don't, and it won't till were both in the grave And you felt the same, and you felt the same (If time heals all, why do I still bleed?) (You understand it isn't all my fault) (I promised you that I would change) (You watched me fall, but I can't keep)