A Violent Delight

Deception, only feature
A pestilential attribute as your fame
A lesson you neglect to
Ascertain

You just disrupt, disgust, distrust, dig up, make fuss
Enough's enough and I never want to see you again
Before I knew it I was playing a part in this pathetic dog and pony act you called a better living

To think that everything could worsen with our sins
I should have known that everyone around me was cursed with a sense of loss
Just a lesser cause building me up just to be dropped
I'll always end up questioning you

Why so condescending with your undertones?
If I go then you'll surely fail to stay afloat
The price rose, now your life is just a debt you owe
All I know is that I might take it

But I can't take it
Now I can't take this dependency on everything that doesn't defend me at all
I dissolve just to feel the debilitation

Creep in and crawl across the walls of my conscience
I never want to sit amongst the ones talking dog shit
If everything is nothing, how come I can't just drop this?
If happiness is coming, how come I haven't caught it all to myself?
I'm becoming a monster and far from capable of branching out for help
To the ones who have sworn to me absolution

Send me a sign that I'll get better
You can tell me a lie, I won't remember
When I'm ready to die I'll leave a letter
If I hand you a knife, sign your initials

It's a series of losses that halts our progression
If the searing would pause I could stop our resentment
With an eerie applause, I am drawn to your presence
If I show you my flaws
Show me your devils

With the steel cold, we'll find warmth in something grimmer
Still born
I'll show you my devils

Send me a sign that I'll get better
You can tell me a lie, I won't remember
When I'm ready to die I'll leave a letter
If I hand you a knife