Saving, Saved

The bags under my eyes get deeper and I've become such a light sleeper
Anymore, I'll stay awake on my knees, I can't ignore
For so long I self-medicated, I think it's because I never felt validated

I thought I was losing my mind, but this world was never so kind to me
I was always told to put my faith in God, but God isn't here
God isn't here
I never put faith in myself

Someone tell me where you find the will to live
And what's the cost
I've got so many words I've yet to say, but my voice is so lost

I promise I'll hang on, I promise
I don't know for how long
I don't know how long

Cause I've lived the path less travelled
Laid to waste by demons, my heart has battled
I was always told to put my faith in a God I haven't seen
One that's never been there for me
I never put faith in myself, but God isn't here

I don't think I'll ever trust myself, but I've weighed my options, it's all I've got
And I'll make it somehow
No thanks to you, no thanks to you
I don't think I'll ever trust myself, but it's all I've got
God isn't here