The bags under my eyes get deeper and I've become such a light sleeper Anymore, I'll stay awake on my knees, I can't ignore For so long I self-medicated, I think it's because I never felt validated I thought I was losing my mind, but this world was never so kind to me I was always told to put my faith in God, but God isn't here God isn't here I never put faith in myself Someone tell me where you find the will to live And what's the cost I've got so many words I've yet to say, but my voice is so lost I promise I'll hang on, I promise I don't know for how long I don't know how long Cause I've lived the path less travelled Laid to waste by demons, my heart has battled I was always told to put my faith in a God I haven't seen One that's never been there for me I never put faith in myself, but God isn't here I don't think I'll ever trust myself, but I've weighed my options, it's all I've got And I'll make it somehow No thanks to you, no thanks to you I don't think I'll ever trust myself, but it's all I've got God isn't here