Harmless Beggar

Nothing I can do to change the situation
I tried to adjust to a style
As part of an incomplete existence
Merely striving to prove I was there
I had to rest my eyes
to remain a while in the limbo
In a more realistic landscape, I'm afraid.
But before I had a chance to think

All things were conspiring against me
As if I could feel the entire cosmos
Coming towards me now
Hits me like an undeflectable blow

Give me a chance, wait for me
Even if I take a long time
Perhaps an eternity
The chances are real
But I leave them incomplete
There's gotta be a first time
Even if you have to wait indefinitely
I'm always optimistic
I'm beggar who just got
a million in a hat full of holes

Keep nurturing this contradiction
So hope doesn't fail again
Like in infinite,
unalterable situations and their outcome
Though I know I'm already there
Like at the end of time, a new beginning

Give me a chance, wait for me
Even if I take a long time
Perhaps an eternity
The chances are real
But I leave them incomplete

The entire cosmos conspiring against me
It's the whole world coming towards me now