Vanishing

I'll dissapear
If nothing becomes clear
For nothing more than this i fear
The voices in my head
I'll interfere
If this will become clear
Never enjoy my peer
It was all spoon fed

I'm not supposed to be you
I'm not supposed to exist

I'll integrate
For this was a big mistake
I'll break away for blames sake
This is all i've known
I live this way
So nothing will go my way
But i can't escape the pain
This is all i've known

I'm not supposed to be you
I'm not supposed to exist

Why does it seem like everytime i try
Nothing seems to go my way