Instead of Stars

I'm not blind but I can't see
not a friend or anything
I don't know what's wrong with me
I can't remember anything

instead of stars
I count the darkeness

and the layers of feelings that I shed

I guess so far
I can't feel sharpness

only dull and blunt in my head

late at night when i can't sleep
I just lay awake and dream
of what could have been
and what should have been
if I could do it all again

up for days and that's alright
I wish that I could lose my mind
my brain is fried now and I can't hide how
I can't hide how I feel on the inside

late at night when i can't sleep
I just lay awake and dream
of what could have been
and what should have been
if I could do it all again

and I know what I said
and I guess I can't take it back now

so I try to sleep in my own bed
but I can't remember how