I'm not blind but I can't see not a friend or anything I don't know what's wrong with me I can't remember anything instead of stars I count the darkeness and the layers of feelings that I shed I guess so far I can't feel sharpness only dull and blunt in my head late at night when i can't sleep I just lay awake and dream of what could have been and what should have been if I could do it all again up for days and that's alright I wish that I could lose my mind my brain is fried now and I can't hide how I can't hide how I feel on the inside late at night when i can't sleep I just lay awake and dream of what could have been and what should have been if I could do it all again and I know what I said and I guess I can't take it back now so I try to sleep in my own bed but I can't remember how