Guarded

I had it all figured out
I wouldn't miss a thing
I hope you're listening now

I hope you hear me
I'm not sure what to say
And I don't know how to respond
Tell me what to do
If I can't be good enough
I can't believe I stood so close
To where I throw it all away
There's nothing for me here anymore
And no reason I should stay
Break my heart and make it fast
'Cause it's all already lost
Please say something just not that
'Cause I cant feel anything at all
I can't believe I stood close
To where I throw it all away
Theres nothing for me here anymore
And no reason I should stay
Tell me something I don't know
Or I hope I just forgot
And I hope he makes you laugh
Like I never could
And that he's everything I'm not
And I just want the truth
Is it really all that hard?
And you won't get to watch
When I fall all apart
I can't believe I stood so close
To where I throw it all away
There's nothing for me here anymore
And no reason I should stay
Tell me a lie that I'll believe
And then maybe I'll forget
And I can't be everything you need
But I meant everything I said
I cant believe I stood so close
To where I throw it all away