Lust

Now I feel lost
Like I can't make it
Through the night
Like I’ll get eaten alive
But Your blood shed on the cross
So I would be with You
No matter if I fall
How many songs do I have to write?
To properly communicate
The mess I'm in
And to press on in the good fight?
This messes with my thoughts
It alters how I see
It chokes heavenly thoughts
The demons are up to me
This slavery is too real
Daughters grow up everywhere
Thinking they’re a candy tool
For some man to abuse
Am I in the statistics?
What is my charge?
Premeditated murder
Because this act leads to death
On both sides
And I’ve been thinking a long long time

So I run and hide
Like You didn’t see anything
But You know My Pride
You see right through me
So I cannot hide
You alone know everything
You satisfy
I will keep on running to You

If I could say one thing
It’s that I repent
But how could I say one thing to You
And then just turn away?
So would I be a liar?
Am I incapable
Of denying my myself a thousand times
To pick up and carry my cross?
You know I’ve tried it
And yes, I’ve dropped it
I remember worshiping You one moment
And then just walking away
I feel like You’re my closest friend
But what do You say?
Am I just another half-in believer
Who'll get pushed away?
How can I conquer?
What would Jesus do?
He flipped tables to the hypocrites
For they desecrated the temple
Now who am I?

So I run and hide
Like You didn’t see anything
But You know my pride
You see right through me
So I cannot hide
You alone know everything
You satisfy
I will keep on running to You

You are my answer
Away from You I'm broken
Now I see the destruction
Of a wayward son
Without You I’ve no meaning
I turn to You completely
Take me as You find me
Till’ I'm fully found

You are my answer
Away from You I'm broken
Now I see the destruction
Of a wayward son
Without You I’ve no meaning
I turn to You completely
Take me as You find me
Till’ I'm fully found
Till’ I'm fully found

Even when I think I'm hopeless
When I think I'm far too gone
You died on that tree
So I could be made clean
Even when I think I'm hopeless
When I think I'm far too gone
You foresaw me here
And endured it all willingly
Even when I think I'm hopeless
When I think I'm far too gone
You were thinking of me
That blood was given for me
Even when I think I'm hopeless
When I think I'm far too gone
You say come boldly
You say come boldly

You are my answer
Away from You I'm broken
Now I see the destruction
Of a wayward son
Without You I’ve no meaning
I turn to You completely
Take me as You find me
Till’ I'm fully found

You are my answer
Away from You I'm broken
Now I see the destruction
Of a wayward son
Without You I’ve no meaning
I turn to You completely
Take me as You find me
Till’ I'm fully found
Till’ I'm fully found
Till’ I'm fully found
Till’ I'm fully found

Even when I think I'm hopeless
When I'm think I'm far too gone
You died on that tree
So I could be made clean
Even when I think I'm hopeless
When I'm think I'm far too gone
You say come boldly
You say come boldly