Visions Of (dis)illusion

I jump in cold sea of misunderstanding
I see the darkness rising in her eyes.
I try to run but there is no place to hide
Seeking for escape, bewildered

I feel your sharp eyes in my back
I hear your whispers, like poison
I try to run yet I am paralysed. Lost my faith in humanity
I see her pain and disillusion
I no longer wish to be hurt
Fragile see her stand there before the closed door
By the hypocrisy

To which I am subjected
Is not the world better off
without me?
Unable to open it without my help

I hear you whispering in my ear
You are the queen of my world

I hear you calling in the distance
You try to pull me back to your world

I try to cry, try to die, but there is something keeping me here
It is the illusion of you, loving me
Understanding me, giving me warmth
Giving me strength, to hold on
To be strong, to be warm and to be saved, and to be loved
To be, happy, ever after being happy

The illusion, disillusion
I try to live happily in
The illusion, disillusion
But I can't stand the pain

I hear you calling in the distance
But I'm not listening anymore

I hear you whispering in my ear
Feeling your arms, around me

I hear you calling in the distance
But it's too late now
You won't whisper in my ear again