CATALYST

The landscape is different now
I’ll dig my hearts grave till it’s hollowed out
The match made a flame to burn it out
Will it fuel me
Or will it break me down

A time bomb
It’s all wrong
Praying my heart won’t stop
For so long
My head’s spawned
These creatures from the dark

These thoughts are imminent and everyone can see I'm slipping out
It doesn’t matter if I fight this
If the solution is a sickness

The catalyst
Will it lift me up
Or hang me out to dry
I'm convinced
If my world caves in
You’ll see there’s nothing left of me

Repress this darkness
I'm scared that I might lose
The parts of me that want out
Trapped in a plastic tomb
Restock then try again to medicate the symptoms plaguing me
The meds are playing out
My life in copacetic
Wide panic

Fear takes me
But I try to forget
All the things that bury me
Remind me that it’s all in my head
When I lose myself again

Give yourself to me
Says the darkest part
That I have held so deep
Surrender everything
It just won’t let go

The catalyst
Will it lift me up
Or hang me out to dry
I'm convinced
If my world caves in
You’ll see there’s nothing left
I can’t fight this anymore
I'm convinced
You won’t see me
Death is now my catalyst

Catalyst
You won’t see me
Death is now my catalyst