Fleeting Faith

I know he won't remember me

I saw my body walking off the edge
I tried to stop it but I had no control of it
Am I a child of God
Or is this a façade?
I'm not comfortable with the question
Am I just talking to myself?
You've thrown me into the flame
Now your hands are covered in ashes
There's nothing left in me but hell
And if heaven is real can we pretend that it isn't?

Where is God
He knew my face
But now he wouldn't recognize it
Feels like a thousand times
I've cursed his name
I know he won't remember me

This isn't what I was taught
This isn't how I was raised
But I've fought with myself and you so long
I can't look back to those days
I've never felt further from you

Where is God
He knew my face
But now he wouldn't recognize it
Feels like a thousand times
I've cursed his name
I know he won't remember me

Where is God
He knew my face
But I don't think he would recognize me
It feels like a thousand times
I've cursed his name
He won't remember me

But don't you dare give up on us
The ones who find it hard to love
We're questioning everything
And killing ourselves

I don't feel safe
I'm losing the battle with this
Fleeting faith
Cut me out
Bleed me dry
Nothing but
A bastard son