B
She could hear them fucking through
Those thin hotel walls
          E
She heard babies crying,
She heard laughter, she heard sirens
B
Red and blue lights flashing
Through those cheap hotel drapes
              E
Blood spilled out on the porcelain
         F#
The bath tub's over-flowing

[Chorus]
Eadd9     F#
Paralytic states of dependency
B          G#m
All waking life's just a living dream
Eadd9    F#
Agitated states of amazement
B                              G#m
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
B                              G#m
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Eadd9  F#   B   E  x2

[Verse 2]
B
Spread out faced down on those
Stained cheap hotel sheets
              E
She spent the last years of her life
Running from the boy she used to be
B
Cut her face wide open
Shaved the bone down thin
            E
Plumped her lips up exaggerated
           F#
A fucked up kind of feminine

[Chorus]
Eadd9     F#
Paralytic states of dependency
B          G#m
All waking life's just a living dream
Eadd9    F#
Agitated states of amazement
B                              G#m
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
B                              G#m
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[Bridge]
Gadd9  A  D  Bm x2

[Verse 3]
D
Night time at the hotel there was fighting in the hall
           G
Thin chain lock to keep the world out
She held her breath till it was gone
D
Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror
          G
In her dysphoria's reflection
          A
She still saw her mother's son

[Chorus]
Gadd9     D         A
Paralytic states of dependency
Gadd9      D             A
All waking life's just a living dream
Gadd9    D         A
Agitated states of amazement
Gadd9                          A
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
Gadd9                          A
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[Outro]
       Gadd9    A                   D       Bm
By the time the ball dropped it was already over
       Gadd9    A                   D       Bm
By the time the ball dropped it was already over
   Gadd9               A                    D
No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow